And so begins Brad’s quarter-life crisis

It’s official, mark it on your calendar folks. Saturday January 15, 2011 is the day it finally set in. I am having my quarter-life crisis. If you have no idea what that means, here’s a quick description: After graduation and living in the “real world” for some time, twenty something’s start to feel the onset of a crisis with some of the following characteristics:

So lately in addition to these symptoms, I have been going nuts. The daily routine: Applying for jobs. Going on interviews. Waiting on job offers. Having no job offers. Being lonely. Watching tons of TV. Sleeping in past noon. Surfing the net and pretty much accomplishing nothing. Then repeating that each day. I have vented a lot lately to anyone who will listen and also read tons of information about it as well. There is even a book that has been written about it I read a few years ago called Conquering Your Quarterlife Crisis.The nice thing to know is that it’s not uncommon to feel this way, and I am not the only one. The problem is, where do I go from here. I keep getting advice from my parents and friends, but literally have no idea what the next step is. I feel like I’m trying to better my situation, yet at the same time doing nothing about it. As I described to my dad earlier today “I feel like I’m in a hole I can’t climb out of.” It’s not that I have no money, or can’t get a job. I have a nice bank account and could walk into McDonald’s tomorrow and start flipping burgers if I wanted, but I want a career, a life and a list of amazing things. Whatever they are. I’m comparing myself to my friends who are married, have awesome jobs and live away. I watch “Friends” and want my life to be like that. I am at home with my parents, unemployed and usually spend more time talking to my cat than any person. I have lived away from home on and off for the past five years, so it’s not that I can’t do it. It’s just living at home makes financial sense at this moment of uncertainty for myself. The crossroads of nothingness that I feel. For the first time in my life I don’t have a plan, and have no idea what I will be doing tomorrow. I sleep in because I don’t have anything to wake up for. It’s really pathetic. When did this happen and why can’t I change it? To be clear, I would not trade any of the amazing experiences I have had over the past five years for anything, I just wish I had a clearer path for the future. Something to keep me on my path to greatness. I know something is coming, but could I please get a 30 second preview of it now before the main event so I can have something to look forward to? To be continued….

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